I am on day 62 of my 90 day cleanse. I'm not going to lie. I had a slight slip with a glass of wine at dinner with friends. I also had a cocktail while on a date with my husband. It was hard to not chug a whole bottle of Moscato or consume three cocktails. All it really takes is one drink to set you back into your old habits. However, one drink was all I did. I guess that can still count as sober.
I am feeling a lot better now. My marriage is moving into a positive direction. My bond with my child is becoming stronger. I am more energetic and productive due the the lack of drugs in my system. My hair is growing back. My skin is clearing up. My menstrual cycle has become regular once again. Healing is a TOUGH process, but I'm very proud of how I've progressed over the months. I'm not all the way there yet, but Rome wasn't built in a day. I'll get there.
As I sit under the dim light of my dining room, I ponder and meditate on this sudden awakening I have experienced this week. Last night, I awoke from my slumber at 3:33am. I have never woke up at a time where all the numbers are the same. I considered it as an omen, since I was unable to go back to sleep. I looked online to see what this omen may indicate in my life. As a Christian, when I conduct spiritual research, I prefer to stay close to the Bible as possible. I don't want to misinterpret anything. When I did my digging, I saw the term "angel numbers". According to Bible Keeper, the number three is a significant number within the Bible. It is mentioned 467 times, in fact. As I continued to read more, it was said that there are no scriptures or hard evidence that indicate exactly what these number could mean. However, scholars and believers perceive it to be a highly optimistic sign.
Some people believe that 333 may appear in front of an individual as a symbol of optimum growth and change that is coming into one's life.
Some believe it's God's way of communicating that God is in the midst and that my prayers have been answered.
Others feel that it may be a reminder to just relax and enjoy everything one may have accomplished in such a short time.
Even though, it's not exactly clear what this series of numbers signify, I'm positive the omen was a good one. I've pondered on this all day. My coworkers even noticed a difference in attitude. I wonder what exactly is coming my way. The scripture Exodus 14:14 rang through my mind and heart throughout the day. "Hold your peace, and let the Lord fight for you." Moses said this to the Israelites who were terrified of the Egyptians when they decided to leave for the Promised Land. This was when God parted the sea so they could get away. The Israelites were ready to surrender and give up. They felt they were better as slaves in Egypt. But Moses said "Hold your peace. And let the Lord fight for you."
There have been developments in my social circle that make me feel I'm strong enough to go back and confront those who've wronged me. However, maybe that was God's way of telling me that there's no need for that. I've done so much since I've distanced myself from the undesirable circumstances that plagued my life for years. As much as I want to brag on stunt on how better I am without them, there's no need for that. I've been ordered to hold my peace. I've been told to enjoy my life for what is now and to prepare for the blessings that are about to come. I don't have time to dwell in the past.
It is time to let go and let God. I understand what that means now. I'm thankful for the elevation that I'm about to receive in my career. I'm thankful for the opportunity and patience to heal from deep wounds. I'm thankful I'm in a safe and healthy environment where I can flourish and be the woman I'm supposed to be.
I am so excited about what God is about to do in my life. I just hope I am well equipped and mature enough to not waste this chance. I'm sure things will be awesome.
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